day of cremation.
today is the day of cremation of my aunt. i think i poured one year worth of tears. but i have already planned with lin and agnes they all to go to science centre today, i know i will feel damn uncomfortable if i miss today, so i left in the afternoon and headed to the funeral. its the last look at her, the last feel of her. and she is offically somewhere over the rainbow. after the rituals at the wake, everyone gets to see her the last time. its hard to see someone not crying. everyone is crying their hearts out. me, and my cousins were right behind the car, walked a distance but all of us were so teary that we were just busy wiping the tears. headed to the crematorium and it was so solemn. headed to the service hall followed by the viewing hall. we all know its the last chance to ever "see" her. she'll be burned to ashes the next moment. standing right at the first row of the viewing hall, seeing the coffin being conveyed gradually, slowly..... the screams, tears, cries, sorrows filled the air in the hall immediately and increasingly....... the tears just had to flow. my heart seemed to stop. the tears just have to flow, and flow and flow.. to the waiting hall. cried with my cousins and we must stop after we reach home. so all of us have to collect our feelings. it was hard arranging mine. i know i can no longer see her. no longer talk to her. she used to ask me to visit her, and have stay overs at her house. all i did was say ok, but i never went. now, there's no one to ask me for stay overs. no one to ask me to go over for reunion dinners. but i guess there's nothing much to change this fact right now. i will remember her for as long as i live. remember her food, her smile, her voice, her hair, her face, her words....
Rest in Peace. Have a good journey.
i believe life will be perfect over the rainbow, with things u loved, with everything u ever wanted & remember to bless all of us.
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