jasmine loves life~

Happy new year!~

2011-01-01T22:22:00.002+08:00

its really a loing time since i updated. i think the last post was in august or something. 4 months~ haha. enough time for me to start and finish a semester~ so yes, i did finished a sem and now happily holidaying. havent been doing much except working for the past 2 weeks ever since i finished exmas till today. and today, finally, 2011! another year has passed and to me, i wonder if its good or bad. i thought about it and realized its both la.haha. soon, i'll be finishing school. and hopefully, get a good job, build up a good career.
my resolution for the new year 2011:
i will study harder and more consistently! haha.

as i grow older, im also less energetic. cant take the strains from those partying anymore~
how i love to stay at home and just be a couch potato~

but tml's an exception. im going shopping=)

HAPPY NEW YEAR!
bless everyone with good health and happiness~

swollen gum and disappointed heart

2010-08-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

had a swollen gum today~ what the hell. more and more painful. canot even move my lips a little more. geez. recently, my days are alwaz unhappy leh. don know why. nothing bad happened, nothing lousy took place either, but my mood just cant seems to brighten up. i wonder what is the cause of it. tml the girls are meeting me, hopefully, i'll be able to relax and have a good time with them. hoping tht i will come back with a lighter mind and heart and feel happier. its gg to be my birthday, so i hope to spend it happily, sincerly happy. wonder how my bdae will be like this yr, after a party last yr. haha.

*geez, how old am i already? still looking forward to birthdays!*

sun-burnt!

2010-07-30T22:29:00.002+08:00

my face is like a monkey's butt, after coming back from phuket on thurs. so im like burning right now=) haha.
phuket is a beautiful place. rest and relax. sun-tanning. htht. swimming. jaccuzzi-ing. everything is so beautiful. our hotel is so cool too. i strongly recommend centara sawaddi patong. a beautiful place with amazing service. poolside bar is the best!! haha.

the most impt thing tht im going to harp on for at least a year is tht i sat on my favourite animal-elephant! haha. he wobbles!!or is it a she?! oops. a very nice experience. i would also recommend Phuket Fantasea. its a cutural village and it costs about S$90 to watch a performance, a very very cool performance, and a grand dinner. imagine eating with about 1000+ strangers. gaga* i ate with about 999 strangers and 1 friend. hees.

im so going there again for a rest and relax trip! wonderful=)

baby fteched me back from airport on thurs morning and we stayed there till the first train. ITS SO TIRING, IM GONNA DIE!

香港之旅

2010-07-20T14:57:00.003+08:00

BACK from hong kong! 5 days, so fast. haha. many many many fun till i don know how to describe and how to put into words. pictures speak a thousand words.

Going to phuket this sunday with eunice=)

looking foward.

hong kong, here i come!

2010-07-13T17:16:00.000+08:00

tml early early morning, about 14 hours from now, ill be on the way to hong kong with jun and jon. suddenly, while typing the names, i realized its a 3J outing. haha. jasmine, jonathan and jun. hees. chunhui, we'll be looking for u in a short while. hang on=)))

this is a long awaited trip, i tot i would wait till internship(if i have the chance) or after i graduate. who knows..

may we have fun, happiness and most importantly, safe trip.

loves.

사랑해요

2010-06-30T07:30:00.002+08:00

是不是每一段爱情故事都能像电视剧里的一样？一样甜蜜，一样感人，一样的刻苦铭心？

some little things in life~

2010-06-29T10:18:00.002+08:00

it's been a week since we came back from kukup and I've not updated about the trip! haha. here comes the story~
This trip has ben different. very different. we had fun, thts for sure. bt because it was the school holidays, the place was so crowded tht the village couldn't hold the power usage and we had a major blackout!! haha. bt it was still fun=) i've been there so many times bt this is a unique experience. it was so funny^^ It was a real test of survival skills. Koh proves to have the most survival skills. he made candles with praying oil! Haha. and made it possible for us to have a shower in th middle of the night, after listening to xing telling some ghost stories. haha. baby, lin, Agnes,yetwei,xing, Connie and me had some little fun and laughter playing card games! the fire crackers was a hot favourite.so much laughter, screaming.... dangerous game! bt so much so much laughs around the house. together with Hans, Nick and Vincent.
bt after all the laughter ends in the wee hours, lin fell sick=( stomach upset. and Hans lost his wallet. poor them.

overall, we still had many many fun and laughter=) hope to go again, and this time, happily for the whole trip!

met up with chun,jun and shuyu last thurs. farewell thingy for chun ba. she went to hk last sat=) so interesting. bt no envy, me jun and jon going to look for her next month!! haha. 14 to 18 jul. so so so looking forward. HONG KONG. 香港. Disneyland, macau..... Imagine all the fun we will have=) dreaming*

after coming back from hk, I'm gg to Phuket with Eunice. another trip to dream about. haha!

july is the month I spent the most money! 2 trips and I estimate abut $2000. den I went to make new specs and and contact lens. $520. argh. credit card bills! arghs arghs!!

a few days~

2010-06-05T10:10:00.002+08:00

I've been slacking since holidays thou I've also been working and teaching tuition.bt I still feel like I've gained weight and It felt so much like as if I have literally became a couch potato.what a shame on
myself. having lessons and being in school seems to be a better life for me. thou stress, bt I will not feel so useless with the weight gaining and witnessing the evolution of a couch potato. *faint*

tml is my cousin's baby 1st bdae party. same place as my 21st last yr. so 巧.

저는 재스민입니다!!!!

story telling

2010-06-02T06:44:00.003+08:00

I was at the market today morning at about 530 am because I was gg to my mum's canteen. when we reached, we had breakfast. just when we were about to settle for a wonderful meal early inthe morning, a man fainted a few meters away. paramedics came. but the stretcher was not occupied. I thought things weren't that simple. a white cloth was removed from the bag and the man was fully covered with it. he died. many versions of the story passed around within mins. some say he was drunk, slipped and fell. some say he was buying fish den fainted. but the only common thing was tht he died. it was so early in the morning that I still feel a little chilly at the thought of him being so close to me just now.
doesn't it sound like a primary school compo? well, it does sounds like one bt it definitely is not. i witnessed the incident and it is a true recount. life is like a story. a fragile story consisting of all the good and bad. may everyone's life be filled with only the good. let the bad be a past and be a lesson.

woohoo~

2010-05-27T08:24:00.002+08:00

yeahs! results out today~ very happy! unexpected results. if only I feel the same and obtain the same every semester~~~ haha. tell myself, jasmine tan!must improve everytime u take the exams. second yr down. 2 more horrible years to go. 加油. all because of my Korean. den can pull up my gpa. thanks everyone. haha. don know who to thank. bt I believe I am able to soar higher bcause of my family, my babyboy and of course the support from friends, and not forgetting the two crazy woman I study with everyday=) Patricia and shujun la. hope they also continue to soar and let's jiayou together!

may everyone have happiness,peace and joy.

最美丽的第七天 The Seventh Day

2010-05-19T05:04:00.003+08:00

the other time shujun told me to watch 最美丽的第七天. she say it's very good. so I watched it and finished the drama a few days ago. in every drama series tht I watched, I alwaz learn new things new principles new thoughts. this time, I am completely deep into thoughts, so into it. I dreamt about it for two nights. haha. ashamed* this is a wonderful show. a show so mesmerizing. so sweet. so wonderful. it reflects reality in life. reflects the harshness of life. reflects the possibilities of life. the life we are living in; what are the chances to meet someone u love, someone who loves u, someone with the same bdae yet a different fate. what a 神奇 thing.
fate love destiny faith life.

八月的第七天*

let me think..

2010-05-03T15:08:00.002+08:00

let me think think think... how long had it been since i updated. i don know what the hell i was busy with. haha. the pain of not updating, the pain of studying, the pain of coping with these and those..how would anyone understand the inability of moving a slight inch?! i had many things up to my neck la~ but one last day, just one last day. i'm looking forward to finishing exams tml. thou i have to teach tuition, but recently, im under a lot of "no-name" stress.

I M BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED BORED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SUPER BORED=X

i hate it=X

KILL ME=X

if I had a dragon~

2010-04-02T13:40:00.002+08:00

on wed, me and baby went to watch how to train ur dragon! haha. I think it was awesome=) is there such a cute dragon available?! my gosh. tht chap doesn't look like a dragon at all. wihout the body, he reminded me of stitch. haha. u guys should catch it. although it's like only 100 mins, I think it's 100 mins spent worthwhile. the animation was hauntingly beautiful. well, everything in the show was=)

despite all the happiness I felt then, I couldn't get rid of the fact tht exams are coming in 3 weeks time. seriously, I hate this fellow the most. he visits me twice a year. everytime he visits, I prepare myself to the top form so as not to disappoint him. hais. the preparation takes me tons of weeks and yet he still scares me all the way to my guts. my guts almost exploded, my heart stopped for a few beats, these always happens when he visits. worst of all, my lungs got so confused, it circulates carbon dioxide instead of oxygen. oh my god!~

this way is not my way~

2010-03-09T10:01:00.000+08:00

life doesn't alwaz go in my way. I believe in fate and try to get it onto the correct path. sometimes it doesn't happen tht way. but what else can I do if I am just a human, not a superwoman.
make myself a superwoman or just ignore every single things?
how fair is it?

disappointment makes me lose faith~

updates~

2010-03-06T19:14:00.002+08:00

WE went to universal studios!haha! quite a while ago, during the preview period. got the ten dollars tix from jun lo. quite fun, but now if u ask me the details, i cant reallly rmb=) haha. but it was fun, and beautiful. quite a few mascots, and a live show. it is the recess week, but i have been busy too lo.
on wed, went to meet agnes,lin, yetwei and yewming for dinner and a catch up session~it has been a long time since i saw them. it was nice catching up after all the tedious times.
ytd went to celebrate shuyu bdae with chunhui,jun,xixi,weizhi,ben,zibin. went to have dinner, den went to marina barrage. we found a "rotten" kite lying there. so ben and zibin they all were trying to salvage it. but... until 130 am in the morning, still to no avail.haha. but its ok, at least they tried. jiayou~
today, me and baby went to watch alice in wonderland,3D.
i also bought a bag today.

i have been dying to go to jam hsiao concert leh~ but i couldnt get the premier tix, so... hais. but i really am emo-ing about it. quite an urge to go leh. POOR ME.

CNY+V day+one year~

2010-02-14T23:57:00.004+08:00

how about celebrating three occasions in a day?! haha. i did today!! first time in my life leh! haha. i celebrated chinese new year in the morning and afternoon~ until i met baby in the evening. then i celebrated valentine's day and our one year anniversary~ wow. time flies. so quickly we have been together for one year. not a long time also not a short time. we have tried hard to be together=)

he bought me present alr la. but today he bought me a bouquet of bears=) haha. and a balloon which we saw on the way to river hongbao. we first went to manhatten for dinner. is full de lo.haha.

baby, HAPPY NEW YEAR! HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY! HAPPY ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY!!!

love you always=)
be happy^^

bdae happiness~

2010-01-30T23:59:00.002+08:00

ytd was baby's birthday. 22nd birthday. we met in the evening. went to town. he wanted to eat jap and buffet, so we went to sakae ot orchard central. the food there is of more standard than the rest of their outlets. haha.

we had a lot of fun ytd, and i think we are the loudest ppl in the restaurant. laughing like nobody's business. dots. haha.

well, i hope we can alwaz be happy=)sometimes its the only thing i want. naive leh. we went to ion after that and i bought him a small cake. i didnt manage to light the candle cus i cant find ppl with lighter. wth. either ppl are starting to cut down on smoking or ppl are starting to become more selfish! haha. actually i realized tht i was asking for a lighter in a non smoking area! haha.

wanted to watch movies but its like completely out of tickets la! hais. so we just hang out in town lo. walked and walked. leg suan de lo.haha.

today i went to jp with my mum and my grandparents. i also don know what was i doing there?! i am supposed to be at home doin work de lo. next week got so many submissions. hais. but i was there and i'm already back. dots. so now, i have to burn more oil tonight.

JIAYOU!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABY!

2010-01-28T22:55:00.002+08:00

1 hr + 10 mins = baby's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! one year older and i hope he will 要风得风，要雨得雨, in the good way though. haha. i also hope he will learn to be more vigilant, in case some bad ppl bully him~ i don like bad ppl^^ i am a nice person, and only i can bully him =) WAHAHAHA. because he is my baby ma~~

its the first time i celebrate birthday with him, so i left tomorrow for him=) HAVE FUN!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! and hope u have the best day of ur life.

Love you,
Jasmine

本小姐又跌倒了^^

2010-01-28T22:47:00.002+08:00

really is trademark leh~ fall down again! haha. about a week ago. cui~ its serious leh and i fell down at the most prominent place in singapore. haha. damn serious. cus damn pain. till now still damn pain! really is 바 보 lo. it means silly in korean~

school started for three weeks already and its like busy la. so many this and that. i really is busy de lo. 바 빠 요. ARGHS!

let's see~

2010-01-23T10:57:00.002+08:00

a few weeks since I updated. well. I am supposed to be doing some work but I was playing ard with my phone den I decided to update my blog=) school started on the 11th. but I was sick the whole week so I didn go to school the whole week=(( dots. so school started on 18th for me^^ haha. but I did missed some stuffs lo. sians. 20th was my cousin's wedding day. I know it's a wed, well he held it on a wed cus it was at Fullerton and there's a min number of tables in order to hold it on weekends. but he didn have little tables either. hah. 42 if I'm not wrong. first time I go to Fullerton for dinner. class^^ haha. he also make it entertaining as he and his wife sang and danced=) Congrats!

ytd went to town with jun to buy some stuffs, do some shopping. spent 150+ alr. arghs. ltr gg to movie with baby again. been a while since we went out cus last weekend I was busy with revamping my room. bought new bedroom set! =) so I was real busy. today we will go out for some fun. but before that, I really need to complete this assignment. if not tonight I will have to burn a lot a lot of oil^^

加油!!

WOO HOO~

2010-01-07T00:44:00.003+08:00

school's starting next week!! few more days to those days again^^ well, 50-50 anticipation. haha. recently, i.ve come across many lessons in life. maybe its a new year, 2010. new 领悟. but one thing for sure, i'm definitely happier. there's too much stuffs to look forward to, and life is so unpredictable. why live a day in sorrows when u nvr know if tomorrow will come? losing someone or something in my life is now a big deal. *i sound old* hee^^

well, look forward and live ur life with happiness and no regrets.

how to undo our mistakes

2010-01-03T01:06:00.003+08:00

a new year a new start. a new life a new me.
resolutions: SMILE
STUDY HARD

*lies* the one thing that hurts. the one thing that kills happiness. yet the one thing that kills a person is denying the lie.

what if the lies are exposed? what if i am the victim? what if i am the one thing that feel the pain? what if. what if. what if.

watched chaw on friday night and went to shokudo for dinner.

having the smiles~

2009-12-16T22:33:00.002+08:00

recently, went for movies: perfect getaway and storm warriors! haha. perfect getaway sucks but storm warriors is quite good=)these three days, i spend money like running water. last sunday, went to town, and baby was late for 30 mins. so i shopped on my own first. for the first 30 mins, i spent 90 bucks already! ARGHS. all his fault^^ keep shopping and shopping and spending money! haha. today i went out with lin and agnes. again, spend money and buy many clothes again~ hais! but i happy to go on shopping spree=) tml going to kbox with jun and pat. sure very fun de, i super super long nvr go liao leh! haha. excited=) i need money money money=) its nvr enough^^

Genting

2009-12-07T14:28:00.006+08:00

HEY HEY! back from genting ytd~ i went on the 4th with baby. hmmm..its been a while since i last went up to genting. quite a lot of changes so it was a pretty new experience. its our first overseas trip so i was looking forward and hope it can improve our relation too=) haha. we went to snow world, played the theme park games, shopped, explore, went to casino. finally i can go in already! haha. it was cold the first day. very windy, raining, foggy.... but it was really cool=) didn but much, spent all the money on food and games^^ some photos are below. the full album in facebook =p

recently been up to nothing but slack.haha. continue the slack, jasmine!!! JIAYOU!

baby bought these for me a few weeks ago. didn have the time to upload it=) thanks!

many many updates! ^^

2009-12-02T12:28:00.004+08:00

SORRY~ havent really been updating.haha.i was busy! really busy! haha. just finished my exams on monday! yeahs** recent weeks, i have been studying studying studying and still studying. it stopped on sunday night! YEAHS! have been to watch new moon and 2012 recently. quite many weeks ago, caught this is it by MJ. wow~ awesome!! 2012 is also good. very very very gan chiong la. my heart like gg to jump out of my mouth. and gg to stop beating anytime. haha. the one show tht i have awaiting yet it seems to be the most disappointing one. new moon. no climax, no actions. i wonder where the director put all the climax to. the book was good. but.... hais. however, if u r really crazy about twilight, go ahead!~ haha.

ytd went to sentosa with baby. watched the 4D magix-Pirates. and the cineblast-extreme log ride. the 4D show was very very very very good! haha. if u have the time, go catch it. its good. funny and the effects are pretty cool~ the log ride is not tht bad but a little short. so if u have extra cash, ok~ haha. we also went to the underwater world. haven been there for a long long long time. everything changed=) cool. a lot of fishes!! and there's also sealion show! haha. a short one though. but its included in the ticket. ok. i'm off to watch tv shows! see you=)

*i got a few presents from baby. but i cant upload the pics. hais. thanks baby*

moonriver~

2009-10-12T22:53:00.002+08:00

ytd was another day of relaxation~ haha. i have too much relaxation and soon i will feel the stress and pain liao. i am not trying to remind myself or remind the others, but it remains a fact tht i am having exams real soon. and it remains a fact that i am completely, as usual, unprepared. hais. what more can u expect from me?! haha.

ytd went to city hall with baby. went to moonrvier cafe for lunch.japanese curry~ YUMMY! it was the first time we went there,hmm, quite nice ambience and affordable price=) not a bad place~ haha. baby brought me to CHina Square for Hans. the Hans there is big de lo~ haha. had cheese cake=) full daoooo, we didn had dinner though we went for "dinner" with mum and dad. but we didn eat~

ok ok. i gtg liao. assignments are screaming at me!!

(FROM MY NOTES:) "IF U DON COME OVER TO ME NOW, I SWEAR I WILL IGNORE YOU"
(FROM JASMINE:) "HOW I HOPE I COULD AFFORD FOR U TO IGNORE ME, BUT YET..U'RE LIKE MY BOSS. I NEED TO LISTEN TO U NOW. HAIS."

iphone!!!

2009-10-11T02:15:00.002+08:00

WOOHOO~~~~ i have an i phone! haha. bought one today. and i have been busy figuring out everything.haha. so i havent do any work lo~ haha. cools leh~ nice man! love it love it love it love it love it.. as much as i love my baby.hees* because he bought me a HP puch for it~hahas=) love it too.its so cute leh. got elephant de=) when i free, i will take a pic of it. because now i'm busy downloading apps=)

school work stil remains in my mind leh. irritating~ cant seem to get it out of my head. anyway,i wont be doing anything this whole weekend la!!!sians. AGAIN LO! exams coming buy currently, my iphone more important!~

muacks*

FLASHES~

2009-10-04T16:29:00.002+08:00

after an inglorious paper last thurs, i went for Inglorious Basterds with dear last sat=) haha.quite a good show but a little off cus its jumping here and there. overall, 8/10.i had a good time tht day. maybe without the maths stress, i'm more relaxed and open to fun=p went to bugis and shopped around. it was a simple day out, but eith him, thats all i need><

sunday we went for a dip at JE. haha. the sun was like scorching, so the both of us has got sun burnt, but he was worse, he's still peeling till now. haha.

monday, i guess i was half studying at home.
tuesday, went to school to submit report. and went to cut hair=)
wednesday, thursday, friday - "mediating" at home. half study half play half sleep lo.
ytd went out the whole day too. went to town for dinner at waraku. (photos) then went to brendan's bdae party=) hope he like the present.
after that, went for a movie with the girls, lin,yetwei and agnes. went to causeway for Sorority Row. it is DISUSTING lo~ EEEeeee finished the movie at 130 am. took cab home with yetwei.
today morning went to tuition and have been slacking till now~ DEAR bought me a bouquet of flowers just now.(photo) we had a little quarrel in the morning=(
sorry and thank you, baby.

i doubt i'm doing anything today. haha. later i going out!!!!=)

ARGH ARGH~

2009-09-25T22:18:00.003+08:00

had my maths midterms ytd. OMG! its like.... seriously, i cant do la! hahas. study study still cant do. den i was sitting behind jun and pat. i see the both of them feel like laughing during the paper. haha. jun was like slacking after like half an hr, den she sleep. pat even funnier, she move about. fidget about. play with calculator, sleep. wak eup do again. den i see her do do do. the scene is like so funny=)

today then i realized i spent a lot of money these days leh. both my account all broke.haha. only left with ocbc=( haha. recently only buy a few clothes leh. den baby bought me a bag and a top, i also nvr buy~ haha. i bought a shorts only leh, i think la~ i cant remember also. den today buy some stuffs. oh ya, tht day buy a jacket AGAIN. and go popular but a few stuffs, there goes like many ten dollars... haha. no wonder got no $$ liao~ orh, and jun birthday also.hahas. haiya, but never mind la, money can be earned back~! haha. time to pay school fees soon! haha.

recently busy with assignments and tests, never really go out. so tmr i'm going out with baby the whole day and have fun!!!! to decrease my sin level, i'm going to do report liao~

wEEEE~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SHUJUN!

2009-09-21T15:20:00.003+08:00

havent been updating for a few days. haha. got my new PC on friday! and i have been busy transferring stuffs from my old lappy to the new PC. it was finally done on sunday~(eh, which is ytd!) haha. friday night was SHUJUN's birthday party! so happy for her. and today is her exact brthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO JUN! may you stay pretty pretty and all the best in ur yrs ahead~

i spent my past two days at home~ " studying" haha. study a little jiu slack. new computer doesn help, keep wanting to use it=) den keep wanting to sleep, watch tv. hais. so i merely did very very little for the test this coming thurs. today i have an assignment due at 6 pm. and i still have not read the question... this is what happens when one doesn even have the determination to study.

baby is unwell, he's in the hospital seeing a doctor, yet i cant be there=( hais. life's a dilemma~

2009-09-14T22:11:00.002+08:00

baby drew this for me on msn! haha. thank you~

sat went to comex 2009 with baby and i bought a desktop!!!yeahs. actually my mum bought it for me la.haha. cus my sis lappy dead liao.
but the desktop not here yet=( and my lappy is so lagggggggggg...
thanks baby for accompanying me walk the whole day on sat. and we also went to iluma to watch G-force(3D). nice~ funny and the effects are really good. i wonder if its the cinema or the movie. because UP wasnt tht good. haha.

Oh ya, HAPPY BIRTHDAY MIAO JUAN!~ ytd went to her birthday party. and her BF so sweet leh. surprise her with a BIG(real BIG) elmo mascot! she was so touched den she cry leh.haha. so sweettttt~

midterms are coming. i'm stressing~ hais. save me. pray for me.

bed + stress~~

2009-09-07T13:03:00.003+08:00

my new bed came on sat! sooo somfortable. haha. my new table coming on tue=) excited too. haha. but all the happiness vanish once i think of my work. stupid tutorials and homeworks and lab reports. make me feel like dying~ the worst thing is i don know how to do them!! if i know how to do, i'd be happy to spend time doing it. but... pervert profs. ITS DAMN IRRITATING!
the best part is, i've been slacking for the past weekend, feel like slacking every moment i'm home! this is not good!
JASMINE TAN, WAKE UP UR IDEA!

i got a bed!

2009-08-30T22:18:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO~ i watched two movies recently! where got ghost + the proposal!
where got ghost...... a little lame la, and the graphics a little CMI leh. okay la, funny lo=) i still don like local shows!><
watched the proposal ytd at JP after going to ah ma house. eh, nice show. funny and sweet~ sooo sweet=)

i went to buy shoes. been looking for it for a long time. keep wanting to get one very comfortable de, so tht i can wear very often. got one from skechers. $89 initially. got a discount at $72. baby went to buy 2 berms and a top. cheap leh. giordano got 50%, thanks to jun. only $60.
and baby very lucky lo. there's this lucky draw in JP, whereby u spend %50, and u are untitled to a lucky draw. i got a $10 harvey norman voucher. and guess what baby got?!!!!....... he got a bed and mattress set leh!!! the whole set, jap style=) and he so nice, he give it to me leh, ask me to change my double bed away. cus my double bed taking up a lot of space~ THANKS DEAR! a pressie from my baby=)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JASMINE!~

2009-08-25T09:44:00.001+08:00

2 days since my 21st! had my celebration on 22nd aug(SAT) at Chevrons. THANKS to all my family and friends who came to share this special moment with me. THANKS especially to yetwei, agnes, lin, chunhui and my sis who came earlier to help me with the place. without them, the party wouldn be a success, the place wouldn be tht beautiful. they ran about with me throughout the night too~ haha. i also like to thank my parents and dear for helping me throughout for the preparation. it was long and tiring. thanks to my dad and the few guys for being the BBQ-men that night. thanks to agnes, lin and chunhui for being the photographer, they gave me all the beautiful memories. thanks to all who contributed to my birthday "CARD". i hope i didn miss anyone out, forgive me if i did. a BIG THANK YOU to all of you who really care and meant to share a special day with me. thanks for all the presents and i ought to thank my baby~

TONNES OF SINCERE THANK YOUs TO ALL OF YOU~

i had great fun at my party! i hope all of you had too! sorry for the poor hospitality=) the photos are all in facebook, go in and take a good look~ YEAHS!!!

starting~~~

2009-08-12T20:35:00.003+08:00

school starts today! and i'm already feeling the need to study liao! this is crazy, nuts, no words to describe! i seriously have got no mood to blog at all, because i have a whole stack of notes waiting for me to organise! and i just spent $100 on 2 textbooks today! OH MY GOD~ hais. why must books be so expensive? how can children from third world country afford to study?!

thanks baby~

2009-08-08T10:45:00.003+08:00

baby took leave ytd and we went to watch UP 3D!! yeahs.very cute and heartwarming. i'm starting my adventure too!=)it was a day for me. i got my first bdae present~ in advance.haha.baby said, as long as i want it, i can have it anytime! let me show you my present.......
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TA-DA!!!!

a BONIA purse!=)

THANKS baby~

catching up~

2009-07-31T13:00:00.003+08:00

WOOHOO~ i have been doing lotsa catching up with lin, agnes and yetwei. haha. but yetwei is slightly busy la.she's having midterms.GOOD LUCK,babe! met up with lin and agnes on tue for breakfast. haha. we had a late breakfast la, after tht, chatted and without planning, we went for karaoke=) haha. it was fun, alwaz fun with them around. FRIENDS. my lifetime friends=) hees. ytd i went back to school with lin, to get some stuffs. went a little window shopping at JP after that.

i've come to realize that friends come in pyramids. the better the relationships, the higher they go. the higher they go, the lesser they are. tons of normal frens, but a few lifetime frens=) i'm listing my lifetime frens recently>< i hope i'm their's too!! haha.

schools starting. actually, i am quite looking forward to it, though i will be busy, but at least its fruitful~

meeting baby tonight. havent seen him for a week~

sentosa~

2009-07-25T22:15:00.006+08:00

today went to sentosa with dear. actually it was meant to be just a walk around trip la. so we did nothing lo.haha. just spent a few hrs walking around, taking buses, taking monorail, chatting take a few photos. haha. i was hoping a trip like this could increase our affection and make us closer to each other. i think it worked out a little=) went to vivo for late lunch after tht. had hotpot. it was good~ things passed so quickly, and i'm starting to get used to him. too much. i missed him when he's at work. i complained when he doesn spend time with me. i get irritated when he does things wrongly.

i wonder.. if these are symptoms of undo-able love.....haha. undo-able means i cant get out of it=)

happy birthday agnes and connie!

2009-07-22T14:09:00.009+08:00

today's my sis's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! stay happy and study hard~ tmr agnes's birthday. HAPPY BIRTHDAY! stay young and happy. haha.

we celebrated agnes's birthday on saturday, 18 jul 09. met up to buy a cake with lin. met up with yet wei and agnes for dinner at manhatten. had too much fun over dinner. haha. there's this little boy, scott, sitting beside us. he's alwaz looking at us cus we are laughing too loudly and alwaz laughing.hahas. he gave me a KISS leh. haha. we gave them cake too, since we bought a big one-chocolate amer from bakerzin. it was good. chocolates chocolates chocolates. faves~

we also went to k-box after tht, at suntec. till 4 am. had a whole load of songs and fun and laughs and photos. its hard to get us out together. the 4 of us only. finally we got a totally girls night out~ and it was simply FUN. i hope we alwaz have these kinds of girl-dates. haha.

birthday girl. such a cute outfit=)

she cant seem to open her eyes.

haha.

its just AGNES.

i just love this picture. so cute.hahas.

she's trying to cover my face.

her card and presents - 2 mango perfumes.

the perfumes.

we couldn finish the cake, so we decided to feed her one BIG mouth of cake each. HAHA.

oh ya, i asked for candles from bakerzin. but i said 23. i don know how it became 30. oops. seriously. haha. sorry agnes><>

she's only 23 *

the boy Scott. isnt he cute? haha. he blows the candle together with agnes.

isnt this card beautiful? haha. we made it ourselves=) so sweet~

birthdays done~

i spent like a lot a lot of money this 2 weeks~ and more coming up this month and the next. HAIS. bought a set of cosmetics - 2 foundations, 1 blusher and 2 eye shadows for $150 on sunday=( haha. but i love it. haha. i lost my contact lenses last week, so i ordered it again. coming next week. $240. my birthday party. just ordered my cake ytd - $215. ARGHS!!! $$$$$$$$

haha. its ok la. money can alwaz be earned again~ spend all u like!! cheers to shopping~

indulge~

2009-07-16T12:50:00.002+08:00

extra free time made me think of childhood days. the innocence the smiles the laughs the flowers the swings the holidays the love. the summer scent i used to whiff, seems to be gone over time. the laughters blazing around all, seems to vanish into thin air. the simple-mindedness used to give me compliments, but now it causes one to be bullied and invisible in the world.

how time has change. and its still changing. changing the way i look at people, changing the way i trust people. changing the way i look at the world. thinking.... if only the world would be simpler, sweeter, lovelier. if only the air would be filled with love. filled with sincerity and true love. the lives of people on the other side, poorer but happier. with shattering roofs over their heads, fragile wooden planks under their feet, torn clothes above their skin. but... how innocent their laughters could be. pure happiness. happiness tht riches and luxuries cant bring you to. simple, pure and true happiness.

indulge in the smiles. find our purest happiness ever.

Singapore Flyer

2009-07-05T22:21:00.005+08:00

ytd i spent the whole day at ah ma house with baby also. nothing to do. i am really very tired of going out liao.haha. don feel like going anywhere de. must be feeling old=) oops* today i was home packing my room. OH MY GOD. its messy. damn messy. finally done~

went to Singapore Flyer with baby, daddy and mummy..

he alwaz like to make funny funny faces~

daddy is so scared, he didn move. he just keep sitting on the bench.haha. and we are VIPs. we have one capsule to ourselves. haha. no la, actually is because there's nobody. haha.

i like this.

the summit~

me and mummy.

the face again.

every photo with daddy.... he is alwaz sitting down.haha.

it was awesome. haha. nice scene.

time alwaz flies when i am with baby. i don know why. sometimes i hope time freezes when i'm in his arms. when i lie on his shoulder, holding his arms, i feel a surge of happiness suddenly. i wish tht feeling stays forever. i don wish to lose tht feeling. the feeling of being loved, and just being happy. simply happy~

day of cremation.

2009-07-02T22:06:00.002+08:00

today is the day of cremation of my aunt. i think i poured one year worth of tears. but i have already planned with lin and agnes they all to go to science centre today, i know i will feel damn uncomfortable if i miss today, so i left in the afternoon and headed to the funeral. its the last look at her, the last feel of her. and she is offically somewhere over the rainbow. after the rituals at the wake, everyone gets to see her the last time. its hard to see someone not crying. everyone is crying their hearts out. me, and my cousins were right behind the car, walked a distance but all of us were so teary that we were just busy wiping the tears. headed to the crematorium and it was so solemn. headed to the service hall followed by the viewing hall. we all know its the last chance to ever "see" her. she'll be burned to ashes the next moment. standing right at the first row of the viewing hall, seeing the coffin being conveyed gradually, slowly..... the screams, tears, cries, sorrows filled the air in the hall immediately and increasingly....... the tears just had to flow. my heart seemed to stop. the tears just have to flow, and flow and flow.. to the waiting hall. cried with my cousins and we must stop after we reach home. so all of us have to collect our feelings. it was hard arranging mine. i know i can no longer see her. no longer talk to her. she used to ask me to visit her, and have stay overs at her house. all i did was say ok, but i never went. now, there's no one to ask me for stay overs. no one to ask me to go over for reunion dinners. but i guess there's nothing much to change this fact right now. i will remember her for as long as i live. remember her food, her smile, her voice, her hair, her face, her words....

Rest in Peace. Have a good journey.
i believe life will be perfect over the rainbow, with things u loved, with everything u ever wanted & remember to bless all of us.

loves

2009-07-01T13:38:00.003+08:00

baby gave me two presents on saturday. i've been busy and lost these days that i forgotten about it.

he alwaz gives me presents even though there's no occasion. thank you, baby.

somewhere over the rainbow.

2009-07-01T12:57:00.002+08:00

she is somewhere over the rainbow, in a place we cant see her, but we can feel her. somewhere much more beautiful than this world. somewhere evil does not exist. somewhere love is all around. somewhere filled with greens and everything she loved.

everything u wanted to do but doesn have a chance to, let ur heart loosen and do it there. you are too good to stay in this evil and dark world. God doesn bear for you to suffer anymore. He is bringing you to someplace nicer and loveable.

we will remember you for eternity, for everything u have done for us, and for everything u have given without complaints.

a hard time.

2009-06-30T13:48:00.002+08:00

this week is really a hard time for all of us.

lets see some updates first.
saturday went to watch Ghosts of Girlfriends Past with baby at JP. walked around and went for dinner. time flies everytime we're together. one blink and its night time. sunday afternoon was my cousin's baby full month celebration. went over for lunch and went to watch Transformers at woodlands.
the hit comes. after the movie at about 850pm, received a msg from my sis. called her back and she said my aunt just passed away. my uncle's wife. in english, its still aunt but is my 舅妈. she is the closest aunt to me, and it was a big blow. she is only 48 yrs old, well and fit everytime. in the morning, she was still talking around with her daughters. on sat, she still went to a wedding dinner with my uncle. she fainted and thts it. she is only 48 and yet a grandmother of two already, the third one coming up in two months. she is like already having such a good life. alwaz outspoken and friendly, whenever she talkes to me, she likes to hold on to my arm. and now, she's gone. my cousins denied an autopsy, and thus written as cardiac arrest. ytd was the first night of the wake, all her 4 children and 2 grandsons are all feeling the pain, just like how all of us were. these 2 nights we will also be there. i guess this is the last thing we can ever do for her. i went in to look at her ytd night. as beautiful as alwaz. but i still cant believe my eyes, tht now she's gone. her face will alwaz remain in my mind, her smile her voice. i think thts what i can do for her, to remember her. this is the first time, ever since i was sensible enough to feel pain, when someone close to me passed away. the first one i guess was my maternal grandfather, but i was still young to feel the pain. now i do.

i hope everyone's in the family is fine, and will live their life to the fullest for their mother.

Rest in Peace. 我会记得你。

updates

2009-06-24T21:48:00.002+08:00

saturday went to iluma to fix my watch. also also watched him play games... then head to tampiness 1 for a walk. shopped around and then took 67 to alameen for supper. haha. sunday, home the whole day. don feel like going anywhere. watched finding nemo at night. slept early cus i went to help mummy on monday and also tue.
ytd, after work, went for a girls night out. with lin, agnes, yetwei. went to ajisen for dinner and had a long chat=) again, went to mac for a looong chat. haha. left causeway at about 11pm. came home with yetwei, as usual. reached home about 12 am. we had a good gossip session. it has been long since we last met. and i miss them so much. hopefully, next week can meet them too=)
today had tuition and now home..

i'm tired. dont know of what and why.

trying~

2009-06-18T15:28:00.002+08:00

sunday went to watched "Blood" with baby. only went out in the afternoon den came back quite early too. i think i am becoming a little too 宅. hahas. oops* as usual, i haven been doing much. but done a lot of thinking. of course, got to do with my life de lo. i spoke to baby before ba, although i might not have expressed everything to him, i hope he understands the key. i did not say everything to him, but i really really hope tht he understands. understands the keystone to the problem. but we're progressing fine. we're alright, just some problems lingering. i just doesn want "it" to become a big problem later. guess thts it.

i need to find reasons for happiness. hahas. havent seen him since sunday. i am trying, trying to make myself go all the way to love.

whats the worst?

2009-06-13T23:32:00.002+08:00

hmmm.havent been doing much. helping mummy, tuition.... slacking at times. but i still hope to have more time to slack.haha. i'm getting lazier and lazier. it must be too natural for it to happen.haha.
ytd, i had a hell time crying over myself~ i must feel stupid, i think i sound stupid too.hahas. baby made me a bottle of stars. the second bottle i received from him. he wrote me a card too. but i cant tell u the contents.haha=) its a secret. den i end up crying the whole night away. cus i think i'm the worst GF=( but anyway, to him, i'm not. haha. so at least i feel better. oh ya, he bought me a blouse too=)

anyway, chunhui told me can plan timetable liao. and the registration is very soon. so i needa check liao.hahas. i think without these frens. i sure don need register courses. hahas.

Thanks everyone for everything.

arghs~

2009-06-08T11:50:00.003+08:00

i've been very very very very lazy these days. don want to get out of the house unless i really need to. hais. i just wanna slack around at home. guess i must be mentally strained. i don know for what. no school, also like tht. siao. i've already forgotten what i did for the past week. friday, dear took leave, so we stayed at home, with connie. slack and play games. sat went out after tuition. watched movie-drag me to hell. hmmm. its scary de lo~ the sound effect is much much louder than all previous shows. what the. need to cover my ears, to prevent my ear drums from tearing. and also, the sound effects makes it super scary. haha. oops. ytd went to wild wild wet with dear and his friend, yan liang. he has this free tickets la. i didn want to go cus i wanted dear to go and spend time with his friends. bue he keep insisting. saying time is so little for us....... dots. haha. so in the end, i went la=)
i must have become a couch potato these days. so super damn lazy.

WAKE UP UR IDEA, JASMINE TAN!

a long and slow week~

2009-05-30T13:45:00.002+08:00

it's really a long and slow week for me!! sunday night, or rather monday morning. about 3 am. i was about to sleep when he called. he was unwell. very unwell and had to go to Alexandra Hospital. i was scared stiff. i don know what to do at tht time. i told him i will be down. i had to be. i couldn be sleeping at tht night, right?! WHAT THE. i had to rush down, i know. but my mind and body couldn cooradinate. i was pacing up and down for a while before i realized it. my mind was a pure blank. didn know what i should do. i shuddered. shivered. changed and got out of the house. ran for a cab and head down. my heart raced.raced against time. i was lucky the driver was fast. real fast but it still seemed like eternity to me. i couldn get in to the ward cus of the damn swine flu. but anyway, i waited and my heart continued to race. or rather, i think it stopped for a few beats before it got back, and it was irregular, until i saw him. he looked unwell. really sick. it was painful, for me at least. saw him home after getting the medicine for him. it was already 530 am when we got home. lucky it wasnt serious. got him home, and i went home. didn really sleep much. i don know why too~ we got a two days MC, so i looked for him at home on tues. i truly wished he recover then~

wed, thurs, fri was mummy's time. went to her place to help her, as i promised her. had tuition on wed and thurs after work. it was really tiring. very.
fri, which was ytd, went out with dear to marina and suntec. had dinner, shopped around. had fun. i hope we can stay this way as long as forever, i hope the "forever" doesnt ends tomorrow.
if only time would freeze when i have my head on his chest.

loves & HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDY

2009-05-24T22:43:00.007+08:00

hmmm.lets see. met up with all my loves these few days~

friday, was an all girls outing=) it has been very long since we had an all girls night, or rather day.haha. well, there have to be some girlfriends time, and some boyfriend time~haha. met up with agnes and lin in the afternoon. had lunch at ayam penyet. den we went for a gossip session=)oops* haha. girls are girls la~ den yet wei came to meet us. we went for angels and demons. nice show but different from the novel~ pretty cool, all the designs and statues=) we had dinner at taka. shopped slightly. bought a top and den gossip and den went home. it has been long since we all had a chance to do all this gossiping and shopping and movie-ing. we're all busy with school. but its nice getting back again=)

saturday was boyfriend day. went to woodlands for movie-night at the museum 2. also quite cool.haha. very very funny, rather. a real comedy. worth a catch. we didnt do much, just watched movie, played arcade, walked around, had dinner.. it was short but fun. everyday, with him is fun. he is so simple-minded. sometimes makes my blood boils.haha. but it is so funny. just makes our life more interesting with each other.
sunday, which is today. it is daddy's brithday. wish him a HAPY BIRTHDAY! and stay healthy and happy. i met up with dear in the afternoon first. again, we went for a movie. haha. too many movies these days ar!!! we watched monsters vs aliens in 3D. have been a while since i watched a 3D movie. nice. the whole movie comes alive, everything is so wonderful=) haha.even though i'm watching monsters...aliens....HAHA.
den we went to shangri-la hotel for dinner to celebrate daddy's birthday. they have this individul set meal. $48 per person, $68 or $78. they didn allow us to order all 3 sets. so we had 4 $48 meals and 3 $68 meals. cus we had seven ppl=)its all individual set meals. so the costs are actually per person. because its daddy's bdae, they had a complimentary cake. lucky i didn buy one.haha. photos below~ oh ya, anyway, the food's great!=)

updates~

2009-05-19T20:53:00.002+08:00

havent been doing much~HAHA. as usual. i thought when i'm in school, its no life. now that its hols, its still no life. haha. tuition and tuition. sat didn meet dear. i don know why. we just didn meet. but its ok. i went out with my grandparents and my family, with Lucas..... haha. he's so naughty. keep beating ppl! haha. carry him until my hands ache=) den sunday, i only meet him in the afternoon. we went for dinner at shokudo. and then went for a movie-the uninvited. hmmm. he gave me a gift. a teddy bear keychain. it also comes in a pair. they are wearing wedding dress and suit.THANK YOU.

these days, i thought we were drifting apart. the feeling's strange. i cant describe it. i don know how he feels about it. but i never speak to him about this. never thought of doing tht anyway. maybe its an after effect of "i-dont-know-what". too confused to think over stuffs. i think he's very nice to me, so sometimes i want to treat him nicer. but sometimes when i want to, things dont go my way~ but whatever it is. sometimes i cant control it. it takes two hands to clap.

hope he gets well soon. his knee is swollen.

ZOO ZOO ZOO=)

2009-05-13T20:09:00.024+08:00

YEAHS! i'm back from the zoo!! haha. thats like about 8 pm. now is lets see....1057pm! i uploaded the pictures for 3 hrs?!!!! WHAT THE! so u know.. expect this post to be picture heavy. very heavy.haha. lets start.dear came in the morning, about 830am. went to have mac breakfast=) missed it so~ den we went down to zoooooooo~ took many pictures. saw many animals. haha. obviously~ smelled many dungs! OMG. some are really unbearable~ haha.
watched 3 shows and some feeding shows.
the first show was the rainforest show. its a new show, and its great! so close up and it simply just shows how talented the animals are~ SOOOO beautiful and obedient. VERY. all the "tropical" animals. hees. we had a picture taken. with me holding a snake. its somewhere below~ hmm.the snake feels dry but its a little scary when it moves its head, and its body!! HAHA. if its Agnes, i really really cannot imagine what will happen!!(btw, Agnes is extremely super afraid of SNAKES!) next was the SPLASH safari show. it was cool~ the sealion was the main role-carlos. he's sweet. and very very very talented. hahas. he's just below. and i got a BIG kiss from him! his kiss was hard and long~haha. and smelled of fishes~ hees. but its nice! den it was the elephants show. woahs. thats really impressive. clever, strong, entertaining and everything u can describe. beyond words. too beautiful. the elephants are really beautiful. we also catched the polar bears feeding, the giraffe feeding, the jaguar feeding. all too impressive to be missed.haha. played our lot at the kidzworld too!haha.oops. really fun~ i hope time freezes there.haha. if only this happiness last for over eternity~

i didn manage to use my camera. so i bought the picture from the zoo. $18!!!! i took this using HP. wanted to scan but lazy! so a little blur!!HAHA.

INUKA, the first polar bear born in singapore!!

he's 18 this year. super big!! 3 metres in ht and 550kg.

HIPPO~

the size of a kangaroo's feet.

he looks so happy being sent to the zoo.maybe he belongs there=p

i'm very very sad!~

if i'm not wrong, the names of the elephants are intan, gambir, aprila, jati.

旋转木马~

some photos are blur cus the animals are too far~haha. for more complete and beautiful pictures, please visit my facebook=)haha.

this blog post is the longest. now its 1205 am!

thanks~

2009-05-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

tonight i had a long evening of tuition-ing. from 5 to 930. and my baby appeared after my tuition, suddenly=) isnt he sweet? haha. he knew i will skip my dinner cus of tuition-ing. and cus i was unwell ytd and not completely recovered yet, he brought me dinner(home-cooked), and to see me, to make sure i was alright.haha. he alwaz likes to appear suddenly and out of nowhere=) i like it too=p haha. but he only met me a while. his transport time is longer than the time he meet me=( poor thing. running about all for me. still need to tolerate my wilfulness><

tmr we're going to the zoo zoo zoo.how about you you you? yeahs. looking forward to zoo. have been a long while since i went to the zoo with my bf. haha. last time i went with lin ym and agnes. i think tht was my last time. pretty excited for tmr=) going to see him the moment i open my eyes tmr morning.hees.

*radiant in love

meet-ups.

2009-05-09T21:30:00.006+08:00

starting from friday~did some meeting up with the impt ppl in my life.haha. first, met baby in town cus he had a half day leave. i couldn get a win win situation with the most impt ppl in my life, so i had to bring them together. i know its difficult, but i'm really out of choice. haha. had lunch with dear at "just acia". a pretty nice place. the second time. nice food, free flow drinks and ice cream.haha. i had fried salmon, baby had ebi tempura.

my fried salmon.

waiting impatiently for his food~like a baby boy=)

finally its here.

& ice cream.

after lunch, met lin, yetwei and yewming. shopped around. it was merely a meet up session la. so doing nothing is pretty much fine~we just wanted to see each other after a long time~hees. we watched horsemen. hmm. quite nice, i would say. though there's room for improvement.haha.for ur info, its gory~ =p
den met connie cus she wanted me to acc her to buy beads. go chinatown buy. so i went down with dear lo, and i left the clique=( went to chinatown and saw dear's father=p first time see him, i don think i presented myself well la, but.......

forget about that~haha. we went for a super super heavy dinner. all the food we ate(3 pax).........

came home.. wasted some time before i get my beauty sleep.today the whole day is tuition day. 1030-1230. 2-330. 5-630. den went to jurong bird park for dinner with baby, mummy and daddy=) YUMMY~

guess what?! dear got me a cute graduate teddy bear! THANKS, baby=) he's alwaz sweet~ he got me a t-shirt last week too~ haha. didn give him credit for that. surprises.

sometimes we argue, sometimes we quarrel, sometimes i say hurtful things. but i really hope it will not spoil this rlsn. and i also hope it will not happen again, so not to give any chances to break this rlsn.

i want to be like him!!!

*WORDS SHOULD NOT BE HURTFUL. USE IT TO SAY I LOVE YOU.

nightmare~

2009-05-07T12:46:00.002+08:00

ytd night i cried myself to sleep. i have already forgotten when was the last time i did that. but i do remember telling myself before, that i never will do it again. and still i did it again ytd. i never liked the feeling, well, who does?! it suck. and now i have puffy eyes. shit. of course something happened that made me cry myself to sleep la. u think i will so wu liao and cry for nothing meh? it has been a long time since my tears fall so uncontrollably, it has also been a long time since my heart ached so much. it ached till now, i'm still feeling the after effect. after crying myself to sleep, i woke up many times throughout the night. keep feeling something lying on my heart, so painful that i couldn breathe, so heavy that it stopped my heartbeat.

story behind: its as simple as 2 words. WE QUARRELLED. for what? i don wish to speak of it. its stupid. i know, anger makes one lose all sense. i lost my sense ytd night, and i don know for what shit.

although its peace, something is still there. a crack in my heart, that i don know how to face him now, i don know how to talk to him. a sense of insecurity lingers in my heart. a sense of regret lingers in my heart. seems to me, like ytd was the first time he ever ignored me that way. although its not deemed as ignorance, i felt that it was. at tht instant, i was suddenly so afraid of losing everything i had. i was suddenly so afraid of losing him. what if i did. what if i did lose him? what will i be doing now? what will i be feeling now?

today when he msgs me, i don know how to reply him. i try to keep it short, lesser emotions. i keep feeling a virtual gap between me and him. he might not feel it. its just me, i guess. and because of this, i keep thinking he is treating me differently.

i have never doubted his sincerity towards me. having relationships before, he is the first one i never suspect before, also the first one who doesnt gives me the stress that my guy is cheating. although i admit, at times i do wonder if he lies, but i never did suspected him. but now, i really don know what to feel. with him, its so relaxing because the stress of worrying "if-my-guy-is-cheating" is never there. but now, everything seems to change. i hope its just the after effect of ytd's nightmare. bless me.

*i'm sorry.
anger leaves me with a sense of insecurity.

hais~

2009-05-06T13:28:00.002+08:00

sunday went for a dip with dear at jurong east. so many people.haha. after tht, went to eat dinner~ YUMMY. frog leg. haha.

it was pretty fun cus super hot. soaking in the water is so cooling. but got tan lo.haha. but too many ppl la. some more, the wave pool and lazy river under construction. so we merely soaking in the water and jaccuzzi.hees.

monday went to mummy there help her. so tiring. came back jiu go for tuition. tue is tuition time again. today also tuition~ today got 2 sessions. 5-7 and 8-930. hais. haha.

recently, dear very very busy lo. i also don know with what la. but its work jiu dui liao la.he busy until the whole day never call me de lo. only some msgs in the afternoon when he go for lunch, also one or two only la. den he will suddenly disappear liao. i know he very busy, so nvm lo. i also nvr call him la, later disturb him. feel like call him also nvr la. he will say, "i call u back later." he say will be less busy soon. i also don know when is the soon coming, but its ok. he say fri he take half day leave pei me. and next wed go zoo with me. hope its confirmed de. at night we also seldom chat, cus i tuition and he very tired, so he sleep early. nvm ba~ since he's busy, i'm also having tuition almost everyday. hais. i'm just looking forward to meeting him soon~

*missing him is such a torture.

days and days~

2009-05-03T11:35:00.006+08:00

havent been doing much these days. wed i was home clearing all my shoes and everything. threw away like 7 pairs of shoes=p felt good about it though.den i can buy more shoes.hahas. thurs i was also home, den tuition. supposed to go to mei hong place for steam boat. but didn go in the end, cus i end tuition so late liao, they already finish eating liao=( haha. but in the end, i went out for a midnight movie-wolverine at 2 am in town.haha. later took NR3 home. friday, i was also home sleeping~ saturday is tuition day~ after tht, met dear to go and collect concert tickets for ah ma. bought concert tickets for them with my credit card, so i must go and collect it. den jiu go to alicia's bdae party~ her 3rd bdae party.haha. so cute~ these days i have been doing a lot of thinking. too many thoughts ran thru my mind, all i can say is 人是看不到眼前的大象，但永远看得到对岸的细菌.

BIRTHDAY GIRL~

i bought her these chocolates. she cant keep her eyes off it!

she loves cutting cakes~

BLOW CANDLES TIME~

MAKE A WISH~

she poses like a superstar. she also doesnt like anybody standing beside her cus its her birthday!HAHA.

she chooses the cake herself.

ask her open her eyes, she do this pattern=)

LOOK AT HER~

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ALICIA!

2009-04-28T22:14:00.002+08:00

supposed to go for a dip BUT my da yi ma visited me today.haha. so the plan was ruined. went town to watch handsome suit instead.hahas. WARNING: spoiler content.
the show was nice. although he became handsome, real handsome, but so what? he got a very great happiness now tht he's handsome, but he realized he lost many many small little happiness, which he thought was shit in the past. lost the girl he truly loved.he never knew what happiness he enjoyed when he was ugly. he was ugly, but so what, he's nice, kind and i don think he's really tht ugly anyway.hahas.furthermore, he's super cute and humorous.haha. in the end, he realized he needs his small little happiness, so he went back to his "ugliness" and in the end, being the 猪朗(his name), still managed to win himself a beautiful young woman.

had lunch in manhatten with dear. YUMMY~ bought myself a pair of sandals. hees. today was enjoyable, well, everyday is, as long as i'm with him. though we might have small little arguments, i believe its going to be fine. i know sometimes, he doesn want to tell me some things, i am upset over it. because its like he doesn trust me to tell me everything in his life=( i don know why he don want to tell me stuffs about his life, though he denied, he said he didn want me to worry about him. but i guess, there's nothing i can do. i don know if it will induce a gap between us. i also don know when i will lose control and say, forget it. but i don want it to happen. i just want to be part of his life, but sometimes i feel i'm not. but well, i really cant do much. i've tried hard to make him step inside my life, and now he does, i tell him every single thing, but yet, i don get it in return. i still don understand, but its 0k.

*a broken heart cant be fixed*

ITS OVER!

2009-04-27T22:53:00.007+08:00

ALrights. finally. exams are over.YEAHS! FREEDOM~ feels so wonderful. its been a while since i updated by blog. so lets see.... i was home on monday, tue, wed, suppose to be studying la. but i don know if i did. well. i forgot.haha. thurs i went to town~ oops. to get something actually la. den fri was lucas 1st bdae celebration. so i met dear early to buy some stuffs and head down. some photos that day~

what a beautiful cake~

birthday boys have the privilege of pinching ppl.haha.

& pulling the cake.

its difficult to get a baby to take a picture.

isnt she sweet?!

BIRTHDAY BOY!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUCAS!

trying to act shy~

next.sat was tuition day. den it was jonathan 21st. photos again. seriously, if u ask me details, seriously i have to say, i cant explain. so lets leave it at that. well, before jon's bdae, me and jun went to meihong's house for a swim~ so long nvr swim liao. me and jun also bought a chivas for jon.we didn stay long cus the last paper is really near. left at about 10pm. got home study.

thats wendy's baby, not jun's.haha.

sun. studying day. but i ended up watching tv, slacking. OH MY. got star awards la. kuku~haha.

mon, which is today, last paper. killer paper. but well, its over!

met dear and head to town for lunch at breeks.shopped around, bought a shorts. had a little fun.haha. den came home for tuition. hees. so he went home and rest after seeing me home. tmr we are going for a dip~ haha. thats about all~

Dear's BBQ chicken~

my honey lime chicken~

WOOTZ!

2009-04-19T11:40:00.003+08:00

ytd was out with baby to town. for movie and lunch cum dinner lo.haha. went to seoul garden ma. at about 5 pm. so its like lunch cum dinner, had dinner till about 7 pm. den went to watch 17 again at 720pm. nice show leh. very cools. zac efron is like so shuai can. super shuai and cool leh.cannot tahan. see him will go breathless and have jelly legs.hahas. cannot tahan. haha. ytd was quite happy out with dear. but we didn went out late cus i need to be home studying. haha. didn really study anything yet la.so so so dead.like as if my papers are over. but really like as if~ later i am also going out with daddy they all. so i need to go study liao. at least a bit~

2 down~

2009-04-16T21:47:00.003+08:00

woo hoo!!! 2 papers down! 2 more to go... today finish paper, very shiok leh. cus still can do, better than expected.haha. tonight i decided to rest, and play facebook.haha.pray that i can do better everytime. 顺顺利利.

i bought a camera today! yeahs.sony cybershot. so that i can capture more memories~ shujun bought a new desktop.haha. congrats to her lo. so hao ming. i also want~ today i bought something for baby. but need some preparation de. so tonight i will spend some time doing it. and thinking how to do it. HAHA. loves.

on the 13th, one day before my first paper, baby came down suddenly to my home. haha. he bought me a dolphin keychain. it comes in a pair. so he has one too. nice. he said that is my lucky charm and i were to bring it to school for exams. and in fact, i think it helped.haha. he also wrote me a note wishing me luck for the papers. thanks dear. i am happy. he alwaz have surprises for me.

on the 10th, went to alice's bdae party. just went for a very very short while. bought her a cute cute card. something about growing taller.haha.oops.

i need to go talk to my dear dear liao. before i prepare for next 2 papers. muacks.

EXAMS~

2009-04-13T12:55:00.001+08:00

tmr is my first paper.ARGHS. i havent been concentrating very much and losing all the motivation to carry on studying. hais. so here i am, relaxing lo~

14 April - Optics and Waves
16 April - Calculus
22 April - HR manangement
27 April - Fields and Oscillations

although this sem only 4 papers, but i don know why, either it is difficult or am i just losing the concentration. the thought of not continuing with school keep running thru my mind. but there's still a side of me which is 理智的. and i need to consider many factors before i make such a decision. i've never regretted anything in my life before, or have i ever give up on anything. either i do my best or i don do it at all. this is what i have alwaz been hanging on to. but ever since i went into NTU, its hard keeping to this principle. and if i ever break this, its gonna leave a scar in my life=( so better heck that idea for now, and continue with what i'm supposed to do~!

all my friends having exams, JIA YOU!加油，不要放弃！

=)

2009-04-05T22:46:00.003+08:00

just came back from marina. went to town with baby to watch shinjuku incident. hmmm. nice plot but lesser actions than i expected.haha. there's a climax to the story but really a lot less actions as compared to all jackie's chan movies.haha. went to just acia for lunch. quite nice and affordable leh. hmm.got free flow of drinks and ice cream and the food is pretty good.
after movie went to marina walk walk. den had dinner with baby and one of his friends=) saw lucas and jo and my aunt they all. walked around.bought two t shirts. love it.
though today was a simple day out with baby, i realized something is different today. i went out with a different feeling today. and i was happy. i was out with a very light feeling and feeling all relaxed. i guess after so many dates out, today was the best and relaxing one.haha. and i hope this continues forever~ thanks baby=) actually i'm trying to find words to express my moods today, but i cant find any. so i'm leaving it at this. i guess, my friends will understand how i feel! HAHA.

EXAMS!

2009-04-05T10:11:00.002+08:00

exams are really near~ haha. but i have a confession. i'm going for a movie today.haha. cus i cant put my mind at ease if i don watch shinjuku incident!HAHA.so i decided to watch it today. but i did a lot of chiong-ing these past days. so i can afford a rest ba!HAHA. i am left with a few stuffs. so i guess i can complete.hees.hope so thou.

first paper on the fourteenth-optics and waves.
second paper on the sixteenth-calculus.

ARGHS!

staying at jun's house~

2009-04-03T12:34:00.002+08:00

alright. havent been home. was at jun house. i was studying overnight there. so i stayed at her house lo. need to really work hard la. exams in 11 days. i think. haha. i already forgot whats the date today liao.first paper on the 14th. sians. i still have quite a lot to do.......

so i have been veyr busy till i havent got a chance to meet evans. haha. sory dear. have been very very very very mang, so also don have a chance to talk to u on the phone too...take care of urself then=)

All the best to me for my exams.

OMG~

2009-04-01T00:39:00.006+08:00

this post is filled with photos from everywhere.haha
now the first few were taken when we went back to ngee ann to study.well, look at the crazy girls here~

its driving me nuts!

i need a rest.

SIAO!

even more SIAO~

CANNOT MAKE IT LIAO~

HAHA.

below are those taken when we were out for dinner on saturday.

reminds me of final year project~ =p

STUPID BRENDAN! push my head. so i must take my revenge.haha.

i like this photo~

bought 3 pairs of ear rings. one each.

thts abel present~

i like this too~

oh well. school's driving me nuts.

out with mates~

2009-03-29T00:04:00.002+08:00

today was a long long day~~~ well, now is midnight liao. so is ytd. haha. woke up at 8am, accompany baby to ICA make passport. went to JP walk walk cus i going tuition at boon lay at 2pm. tuition liao jiu head down to town.meet lin and yet at 5pm.shop for abel's present. in the end, we decided to let him choose.haha. so went to starthreesixty to buy tiger shoes lo. quite nice. went to heeren shokudo for dinner. YUMMY~ den shop shop. bought a mascara and some masks. yet intro me the fiberwig mascara. i think its not bad too. i used liao will update.hmmm. had fun today. anyway, was out with yetwei, lin, abel, brendan, milton. haha. the photos are not here yet. will upload it again when i got it.

okays. i'm completely strained out today. so i wont be studying tonight. oh well, today is a whole day of fun. so tmr gonna wake up earlier to study~

photos

2009-03-28T00:31:00.002+08:00

photos that have been ages ago~ well, all cus of tht patricia poh kuku. so long den give me. but i only have a few here. the full thing is in facebook.so feel free=)

in the toilet~

my tang mun=)

SUNKIST~

ichiban sushi

me and meihong

MAC breakfast in school~

in town for a movie i think. seriously, all the photos are so random that i cant rmb when it is taken. this is when we went for benjamin button. same day for manhatten fish market.

EEEeeee~

manhatten

too random la.stupid kuku. i am super mentally strained now. went to ngee ann to study today. with pat jun and meihong. from ten to ten. wow lao. i seriously don know what am i doing now. so i need to be catching sleep now. tmr need to wake up at 8am. accompanying baby to ICA. afternoon teach tuition. evening meet yetwei they all to celebrate abel's belated bdae. so one whole day gone~ hais.
SLEEP~

depression~

2009-03-24T22:24:00.003+08:00

okays. the photo i took with yewming on social night~ look at our ming ming!=)
so i stopped at my previous post saying i will be out with baby on saturday. so we went PS for a movie-Hotel For Dogs. nice show. cute and touching. too many dogs. super cute and cools.
went to bugis for dinner. and we saw a super super big rainbow.haha. he said rainbow represents hope.well, i have been hoping. too many hopes. too many of them that i might not be able to count. some things are better left unsaid. and better left unexplained. these 2 days have been hard, and its going to be a lot harder this coming month. school and rlsn. i think i really have some problems coping with the both of them. but anyway, forget it.haha. well, it really has been tough, and its going to get tougher. i am starting to get all paranoid about things around me, getting all stressed at all times. i tend to get very irritated recently. irritated about everything, and i don understand why. FREAK. getting all impatient with things around me. and keep having to listen to the same things, and stupid things. i also don understand and i don know how much my patience is going to last. there's always a limit to my tolerance. and i don know when i'm going to break down. ****

i really cant hope much, so as not to disappoint myself further.

updates~

2009-03-21T10:41:00.003+08:00

oh well.havent been updating.life's still like that anyway. haha. nothing much to expect thou. at least, i'm SUPPOSED to be studying. seems like i don have much chances to do that.hais. things havent been easy. there's a lot to deal with. and exams are near. the stress seems to be there at times.hais. its difficult. but whatever.

wednesday, i was home but i didnt touch my books at all. don know what the hell i was doing?! JASMINE TAN! evening went to pizza hut with baby. well, i lost the ring he bought for me.oops. den he bought us another pair on wed.i am pretty sure i wont lose it again. well...

yesterday was yewming's OCS social night. i was there as his date~ so many so many guys=) haha. saw a video of their days in tango wing. seems fun but i think its hectic.haha. ytd was fun~ after the night, we went town for a movie-street fighter. quite good. but i expected more. haha. but everything was fun with tang ming ming!~ OOPS. finished the movie about 2 am came home and sleep.
woke up early today to do my report. today i cant be studying except at night. cus i'm going out with baby later. so i need to catch my time and study hard now~!

friday the thirteen~

2009-03-14T11:41:00.002+08:00

ARGHS. yesterday was friday the thirteen. really is not very heng leh. first thing in the morning, late. den climbed the stairs almost fell.tripped. and hit my toe.kuku. still hurts a little when pressed. haha. den went to school plot graphs.put my thumb drive and didnt take out!! know what time i realized i lost my thumb drive? twelve midnight. after school i went to vivo with baby.watched tale of desperaux. ate dinner. had my cheese cake=) my flu not fully recovered, so i still didn get back my taste buds completely. sucky~ so now i need to do my report liao. today got no tuition for both. but i stilll cant sleep in cus i wake at 7 to go school to find my thumb drive!!! lucky daddy fetch me. now i need to do report.
later still got sam's party to go to.need to meet yet wei later. going ah ma hse first.

welllll~

2009-03-11T20:49:00.002+08:00

oh well. havent been updating. okays.lets start from sunday.

Sunday, went to science centre with baby and connie. alright, the pics are with connie, and i havent got the chance to get it from her. will upload them asap. eh.quite enriching there. super long never go there liao. so was pretty excited. i think its quite cool, with the tesla coils and everything. there's a lot of things that are related to my studies.hahas. watched the imax movie at omni theatre, SEA MONSTERS. hmm.interesting. so all the prehistoric fishes are so ugly~ HAHA. super ugly and disgusting de. all the teeth hanging out of the mouth. watched another simulation ride.that one not as interesting but okay la~ THANKS baby for that day. i know its a little late to say thank you only now. haha. but i want you to know i appreciate that.appreciate ur effort made and everything you did.
went to bpp for dinner after that and walked home from there.duringthe walk back home,well, at least, i feel so much comfortable with you liao~HAHA.

okays.monday- i was sick the moment i wake up. sore throat. shitty. so everything was normal on monday. if there is anything funny, maybe i would have already forgotten.hahas.

tuesday- still sick, or rather, worse. sore throat. cough. flu. body ache. so much shitty. met baby at boon lay after class, brought me for dinner. but cus i really was unwell, we were unable to enjoy. and he seemed weird that day. well, he didn explain when i asked, so forget it. sent me home. thanks dear.

wednesday- woke up at 415 am to help mummy, as promised. her worker not free today, so just nice i wed no class, she don need find replacement. ate medicine on tue night, so i woke up feeling much much better. only blocked nose, cough and a bit of flu. back from mummy's place, bath and do report. but it wasn completed. almost done. but well, the graph wasn even plotted.hahas.
now i am just watching tv and blogging. going to do some tutorial liao.
=)

oh well~

2009-03-07T16:20:00.002+08:00

i have got a confession to make. okays.fine.i'm in love.in a relationship. didnt say in advance cus i don know how to bring it across to my friends. the friends who alwaz stayed by me. who alwaz supported me. my hesitation to get into a relationship, partially comes from them, at times. but i realized all my friends, will support me. will stand by me. will believe in me. and therefore.......WELL.
thanks to all my friends~believe in me & i hope i can show you my decision is right.

in love~

2009-03-02T23:02:00.002+08:00

don know should say this not leh~ but i guesss i'm in love~ for details, i will tell you guys when i sort out my feelings!~

haiyo. today go shopping with patricia in JP. eat new york new york AGAIN~ SUPER SINFUL AGAIN~ den go buy presentation clothes. one blouse and one skirt-$120. bought one samsonite backpack-$120.
spent like 270 today. sians.
still need buy concession tmr.
pay phone bill.
pay citibank bill.
pay pay pay~

HAIYO!~
received a bouquet of flowers from him that day. THANKS!=)
surviving from my care still.hahas.

ARGHS!

2009-02-27T15:43:00.002+08:00

ARGHS! this week i never go school cus its one week break. so supposed to be studying right?! oh well, i did la. but not much use. i don know if i should continue this way la. everytime study also like no use. int he end, also don know how to do. read tb can understand also no use, cant do questions. what the hell. i already in this mood-since i study also no use, den dont study lo.
HAIS.i don know why leh~

Next thurs:
calculus-midterm
field and oscillations-midterm
communication-presentation

look at that~! and i cant complete in time. confirm.

HELP ME~

hesitation.

2009-02-25T14:09:00.002+08:00

i am hesitating over a decision that i don know if i should make. it is bothering me. and i am hoping to stop this hesitation. i know i shouldn even be hesitating, but it is just so hard. i appreciate ur effort but its not the way i want it to be. hais. i cant continue.

exams are near.
jasmine is confused.

MALU-ed~

2009-02-16T13:10:00.001+08:00

i said about the incident in my previous post.but i claimed that i cant explain it. well. thanks to shujun. she explained it for me...

a copy from shujun's blog:
today jasmine did a very kuku thing infront of him! she thought i was playing with her when i ask her to open the door for me. and being inside the room, she nv press the control to open and still try to push and open it. damn funny if i was inside the room. heard that her 唐门 ask her to press the control and she did not hear it (according to her). haha see la, so malu infront of him somemore. JAS TAN MALU.

CREDITS

YAP SHU JUN

see la~ like as if i not malu-ed enough.
now we in comp lab la. den hor, me and pat go print the stupid lab report, den hor jun go refill water la.haiyo, i should go with her la cus her, she SAW MY 唐门 LEH!!!!!!~~~~
we super excited when she come back and tell us. HAIS. and i think she also very excited la.print what stupid report, den hai wo cannot see him. so sadddd~

v day eve and v day~

2009-02-15T10:02:00.002+08:00

aiyos~ v day eve-friday the thirteen! OMG. couldn believe myself in doing such a malu thing in front of my tang ah mun(if you watch the drama,miss no good. its the "BF" la) leh~ ARGHS. super malu~ he damn nice. he bought chocolates for us in class=) his rocher specially delicious. hahas. but i did something damn malu~haha. cannot explain here la. but it has something got to do with a door and a exit button. ARGHS. MALU-ed enough.

v day went out~ quite a nice day but also a day where i made a decision and i am not sure if i am right. but when the time is right, i will tell you guys=)

WISH ME LUCK~

JIAYOU, JASMINE~!!!!

WOAHS~

2009-02-08T18:09:00.002+08:00

lin chunhui jun qingjie milton brendan yetwei yewming patricia and a few others were over at my place for fun=)HAHA. had a long night. played till today morning about 8 am. cards mahjong... learned a few new games from qingjie.wah laos. that one is super super high. 8 point 9 points. i cant explain it in here but the money you can lose in there is probably like 100s in a few rounds. and the money you can win is also that much. COME FAST GO FAST.来得快去得也快! super damn high and heart wrenching~HAHA. get scared when playing it. too fast and too much~ but we had a lot a lot a lot of fun. more than 10 of us probably. had like a great night out~ busy playing games, nobody to take photos.hahas. but its ok, all the memories in our mind=)

ARGHS!

2009-02-05T20:11:00.003+08:00

why am i always being bullied by them?!
take a look at my hands.scrollllll downnnn~

their creation of a modern henna!~

i don seem to be able to get out of their clutches!

ARGHS

left hand by patricia. right hand by shujun~

i know i am majoring in physics, but i don need the formulae on my hand!

i can hardly breathe. they are pushing my head down on the table.ARGHS!

am i a hand rest?!

WHY~ am i always being bullied?! hahas. but there's where the fun comes from...

today the lift spoil leh! den we have to climb the stairs from B3 to level 1. doesnt sound tiring right? three floors only leh. but then hor, climb the stairs with them hor, can die. its already going to take up energy and yet laugh the whole way.......take up more energy. of course tired la!!and yet the stairs like never ending..... wah lao~ the worst ever. like climb vertical marathon~

computer lab~

2009-02-05T13:01:00.001+08:00

in the computer lab, waiting for lecture to start at 130pm. doing nothing but playing with facebook and blog hopping. save me from all the tutorials and assignments~

miss my friends and i wanna see them very very very very soon. this sat some of them coming to my place. hope we can have a good time. no no. i am sure we can have a good time=)

life life life~

2009-02-02T20:05:00.002+08:00

HELLOoooo~ haiyo.life is like a cycle. but i must agree that it is full of laughter~ with jun and pat, i really must say it is laughs laughs laughs laughs laughs laughs laughs laughs! exams coming.lab reports. tutorials. mid-terms. =( dilemma leh. 一下快乐，一下伤心. hahas.

i love this pic. she's my niece-alicia. like my daughter. hug me until like that=)

physics make us nuts.

+ make my hair messy~

+ make the table very very messy~

+ taking stupid pictures like that....

GIANT FEET with my mini feet. that giant is patricia~

school life~

2009-01-30T19:55:00.005+08:00

haven been updating for a long long time~hahas.busy preparing for new year and having fun during new year! holiday mood. no mood to study leh~hahas.got a few photos, we took in campus. three crazy girls. laughing for half an hour can lose 150 calories. i think pat said this. so we decided to sit together and laugh for 3 hours everyday. guess we are still doing that everyday~HAHA.

we took like more than 15 times before capturing it la. the photographer is a bit lousyyy~

JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP JUMP

going to somewhere unknown~

BULLY~

soooo DOWN~

2009-01-21T12:43:00.002+08:00

ytd rushing report 230 am. today supposed to wake up early to study, yet i snoozed my alarm until 11am. HAI. today morning, i feel so different suddenly~ every morning when i wake up, and go to school, i alwaz have something to look forward to come home - YIJIMAE. but, NO MORE~ i no longer have anything to anticipate when i come home from school.ARGHS. and i feel that my world is so dark~ nothing to work towards to, nothing to look foward to, nothing to satisfy my needs to see my lee jun ki. HAHA. i think i am going nuts.
*concentrate on physics rather than the jun ki i have in mind~

2009-01-20T23:18:00.004+08:00

i still cant get him out of my head~hahas.today last episode of yijimae liao.will miss watching him on dramas. when i see him, i feel like my world just crashed.HAHA. heart beats and legs jelly~
a definite soft spot. but i hope he will not replace the space i have for wu zun. however, i think i have enought space for one more him=p

today in lecture, me and jun saw a guy taking a stacked of new year cards. hand-made, or rather hand drawn. so asked him if he is seeling it. in fact, it is to raise funds for the visually handicapped. five cards for $10. so we shared. jun came out with $6 so she took 3.

SHUJUN~

JASMINE~

JASMINE~

arent they cute?!HAHAS. its really beautiful. school is in its 3rd week. and reports are coming in.assignments are in. and we are like rushing so that we don need to sacrifice our chinese new year. oh well, its coming very soon. and i am in a dilemma. sort of anticipating it yet sort of thinking that it is just a simple occasion. but i am still happy~

恭祝大家身体健康，平平安安，最重要的是要永远过得快快乐乐!~

friends

2009-01-15T23:56:00.003+08:00

i realized~friendship, like love, can be 培养. if you stick with someone for a period of time, you probably will be closer to that person. obvious right?! HAHAS. but i am glad that friendship grows~ at least it probably proves that my friendship with all my friends will advance as time goes by=)
school is in its second week now. already having a lot of things liao. i have a test next monday~ HAHA. still struggling with it. i pray this sem will be better since i agreed to work harder. PRAY FOR ME=p

soft spot~

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2009-01-10T21:57:00.000+08:00

just another day~ memories*

new york new york~

2009-01-09T21:44:00.004+08:00

taken by jun at new york new york. 梦幻~hahas.

went to JP new york new york for dinner with jun. after tht chunhui joined us for dessert. today was like a super duo sinful meal~ HAHA.

shujun had penne with roast chicken.YUMMY~

i had cheesy chicken! woahs~ it was really heavenly. HAHA. equally sinful=p

LAKE CHOCOLATE. its super sinful. strawberry and banana in a swimming pool of chocolate. with a scoop of vanilla ice cream. WEEE.

DEEP FRIED MARS BAR~ this is also super sinful. therefore super duo sinful.HAHA.this is really good. caramel stuck on our teeth.hahas. first on jun teeth. i ask her why leh. she didn answer.later stuck on mine ^^ HAHA. this is really really good!~

MUDPIE~ chunhui ordered this. QUITE A NICE PIE~

doesnt look good on photo. i think too much choco.hahas. but it taste like heaven=)

school = hell

2009-01-08T23:33:00.002+08:00

school started a few days ago. nothing much this week. some lectures. some tutorials due next week. but it seems like the adrenaline rush in me is too much. shujun is already counting down to exams.hahas. and it stress me up as well. but i did make a promise before, tht if i were to pass my previous exam, i would work much harder this sem. although i did not state the recipient of this promise, i assume god heard that. so i must keep my word~ and i hope i will alwaz improve every sem~

not staying in hall is like....hmmm. no words to describe. its nice staying in hall. a good experience. good friends. good company. at home, i have better dinner, have fruit juices every night. have better sleep in a an air con room. better sleep in a double bed. better sleep after chatting with my daddy=p wow. seems like i got no complaints moving back home~ both places are definitely the best places to live in in my past 20 yrs.hahas.

*missing you has become a habit that i can never quit*

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

2009-01-03T22:29:00.005+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR MY FRENS! didn have time to update after the countdown "party" i had with a few frens because i was busy catching up with my own life so that i will not miss the last few days before school reopens! went to clarke quay on new years eve.had a hard time getting on the bus and was like at least half an hr late~OOPS. went for dinner at mr curry. and then dessert. yummy~ after dinner, went down to boat quay area. they had a mini countdown around.managed to squueze thru the crowd and spent the last few mins of 2008 there. saying goodbye to 2008, and welcoming in 2009 with open arms. the feeling was mixed. haha. 2008 might not be a good year for me, but its isnt very bad. had a lot of lessons learnt.learnt a lot about ppl around me. know more about frens. know more about enemies. started a new chapter of life-NTU. had a new grp of frens in hall 2-kaydens. might not be very very close, but we had our laughters together, our touching moments together in 2008. i believe there will be more in 2009 and more to come in the future years. for the regulars that have alwaz been in my life, i thanked them for leading me thru 2008 and into 2009. end of 2009, i will still say the same thing to them. i know they will be with me forever~ people i cant live without.
in this new year, i pray....for myself, frens and family

health
peace
joy
faith
money
顺顺利利

and for myself & those studying, one extra thing.

results

ANYWAY, I PASSED MY EXAMS!!!! YEAHS! so i will be starting school on monday~ it will be another hell semester~ don dare to think about it. i cut my hair today morning.did a very daring change and i am now in a don-know-how-i-look feeling~WeeEEe. i guessed frens will be pretty shocked.hahas. my table's in a big mess now. i think i shall start packing and get ready for school.

a HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL~

days~

2008-12-27T12:53:00.004+08:00

continued...

its really a giant platter!

xmas eve we had a peaceful xmas at my home~HAHA. one very sweet and nice xmas. haven been pretty busy after xmas. went to my cousin's place on xmas day for his baby first month celebration. was working ytd. had a good sleep today and going for a movie later at night~ Ip Man~ before that, i gotta complete my heroes season 3 first!

results out on monday. to hell day : 2 more days. i am anxious about it.but am also excited about it.HAHA. anyway, got a new phone on xmas eve! LG ice cream~ the pics are blur!!ARGHS><

HAPPY BIRTHDAY,yewming!

2008-12-22T16:40:00.004+08:00

HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YEWMING! finally you are 20.hahas.

after wed sentosa, i forgot where i went on thur.hahas.either i am at home or at work. fri i was at work also.hees.tired tiredx.sat also work but half day only.got home about 1+, bath and meet yetwei to buy present for yewming. wow laos.he is a fussy guy la, so we had a hard time searching presents. went to new urban male cus he wanted a singlet.searched for like an hr before we find one with acceptable design and correct size.luckily, the guy who served us was nice.hahas. we went to manhattan for dinner after that. abel milton yewming chunhui shujun yetwei lin agnes me. had a great great great dinner. and it was long ever since we had dinner altogether.had a lot a lot of fun.laughters everywhere~~ love tht feeling.so far, nvr got a chance to laugh that way with uni friends. maybe we only know each other for 3 mths. after all, i knew them for years liao, maybe the bond is different.the feeling was great~ muacks. after that, watched the day the earth stood still.not all of us. me lin agnes yetwei abel milton. watched a midnight show. chunhui and shujun went back. and our dearest yewming went CLUBBING! hahas. wasn a very nice show.quite disappointed. EEee~ went home after that.reached about 3.had a good night sleep. was home resting the whole sunday~ today worked.tml working.wed working but half day on wed. at night they coming over to my house for xmas celebration. we decided not to go to town this year. because we are glad to experience one PEACEFUL XMAS!

MERRY XMAS & HAPPY NEW YEAR~

SENTOSA~

2008-12-19T18:02:00.007+08:00

WED i went to sentosa for a day of fun! HAHA. me yewming agnes lin. we went to the beach for some spalshing fun.infact, a lot of fun there. it was nice sitting on the sand, chatting.soaking in the water splashing water everywhere on everywhere. the sky was sapphire with the sun rays engulfing all over sentosa. it was a really beautiful day. with a beautiful feeling. photos photos:

this is after "BITCH-ing".HAHA.

this is what happen when you "BITCH" too much

HAIYO~ but XMAS!

2008-12-12T23:13:00.005+08:00

HAIYO! supposed to go sentosa ytd leh~BUT jun called me in the middle of the night reminding me on the registration of course!!! we are suppoed to register ytd at 130pm. so in the end, cancelled the sentosa trip with lin and agnes.think we will be going next week=( HAHA. sooo went to lin's house for lunch and movie after i finished the registration at home. she cooked pasta and we watched Mr magorium wonder emporium and nacy drew. also catched some glimpes of saturday night live. damn funny. had a great laugh with them.had more chit chats sessions after tht. was a long time since we done that. 怀念。

XMAS is coming!! must be a season i love the most. after all, its a season for giving! FAITH LOVE PEACE HARMONY FUN JOY.

SHOPPING~

2008-12-10T22:32:00.003+08:00

ytd was the kuku-est day~on mon, i went to newyork newyork with family ma.so i left my wallet in my mum's bag & FORGOTTEN all about it...until ytd afternoon, while i was preparing to go shopping with lin.my mum called and said my wallet's with her! soooooo i stupid-ly took MRT to toa payoh and get my wallet back before meeting lin in town!BOOOOOOOO~ but everything else was great after that. it was a long while since we went shopping together. bought a top, water bottle, toner. and i guess thts about all. wanted to buy heels or shoes or whatsoever, but couldn find something that i like. so i decided to put it on hold. wanted to get more tops, but also nothing catches my eyes. will be shopping quite often these 2 weeks so i would rather wait~
bought this water bottle~ (BOTTLES AGAIN) i like the blue colour a lot~makes me feel like i am in a pool when i drink from it! HAHA. (considered a long while before buying.realized i have many bottles at home) BUT i still love the blue. oh well, the picture doesn really shows the blue. go to the shop and see it!=p

today i went to help mummy and in the afternoon met lin at novena, hoping to get some small grabs! didn get tops, heels, shoes, blah blah blah... but i got myself a mirror, comb set. SO CUTE~

its smaller in reality. i thought it was cute.

went into the kitty shop hoping to get something for yetwei. she hasn been able to go out with us because she has lessons, and poor babe. rushing reports and reading thick whatevers~ she and my sis are BIG hello kitty fans. bought yetwei a notebook, though i am not sure if she will use it. HAHA. hope she likes it.

don know what my sister would want, and i think she has EVERYTHING already. but i saw this cute little pencil. the kitty looks so innocent.
found myself some nice and adorable paper clips.

lin bought this for me.THANKS. she has a pair too.

i saw a nice heels, hesitated for a while & in the end, perished the thought. too much=)

though i didn get what i should have got, but i was happy.HAHA. tomorrow is SENTOSA day~praying for it to be sunny. and also can get to do some shopping in vivo too.hees. next week can still get to do MORE shopping. YEAHS!

SENTOSA, here i come, with my agnes and lin!=)

知足常乐*(should be correct ba)

Giddy-NEss

2008-12-08T22:45:00.002+08:00

ARghs! ytd supposed to go for BBQ. didn go to the gathering with jun they all cus of the BBQ. in the end, i didn go anywhere! i left home ready to go for BBQ.den i felt so damn damn damn giddy~ ALMOST FAINTED!=( cannot take it so i came back home and rest. SO.. in the end.... i was home sleeping~ ARGHs! so 扫兴! HAIYO~ so i was unwell for the whole day.ate medicine.sleep sleep.today felt much better=)

went to newyork newyork with family for dinner~ forgot to take pictures leh! HAHA. had a short shopping session before coming home. tml going out with lin to shopping. super long nvr shop. *hand itchy*

*try to leave the lights on for me to see you better=) something that i rely on to get home.

a drama saturday~

2008-12-06T15:17:00.002+08:00

JASMINE IS BACK!~ i slept till 2pm today leh.hahas. what a nice feeling.havent had a good night sleep for so long. had a long call ytd night! too happy, so slept very well.hahas=p
today i am going to stay at home and complete my drama. tonight jiu can go out liao~ HAHA.
*nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia nostalgia*
too much to withstand without you, even if its only for a few days=)

just another day~

2008-12-05T22:47:00.002+08:00

just another day at mum's workplace. nothing interesting without you. not going out, phone not ringing. you must be in genting having fun now. waiting waiting waiting. well, you said u will call. sorry i cant tag along. got things to do this weekend.ENJOY=)

oh oh oh oh oh my goD~ JUST ANOTHER BORING DAY!

friends

2008-12-04T13:26:00.002+08:00

friends are impt ppl that we cant live without. but what if ur friends can live without you? hais.emo momo liao~ HAHA. have been really busy these 2 weeks. work work work. if no work is fun time with alvin they all.meeting lin they all real soon again. last week meet once jiu nvr meet liao. really hope to be able to see them everyday.hahas. like the poly days kind. actually got a lot of ppl i wanna meet leh. but nvr have the chance to ask them out. the one person i really wanna see is tht yewming liao.hahas.POP soon~ hope to meet yet wei soon too.but she got class~ now tht i am having holidays, i so want to make use of the time and do something meaningful.instead of going out and have fun everyday.hahas. so work lo~ today no work,rest day~ drama time. also havent been contacting eunice for quite a while. well, she didn contact me either~ haiya, true friends will always remain as true friends. even if there's no contact for a long time. i do have a bunch of them~HAHA. no contact but we will always be~
朋友一生一起走